Honoring Her – Two years later, sucks

Well, here we go, the last day of the second year since she passed.  I am still standing, she knew I would be, however, there were moments I had my doubts.  I think of her daily and everything reminds me of her.  I am either remembering our life together or wondering what she would thinkContinue reading “Honoring Her – Two years later, sucks”

Tortured by my Thoughts

I have the most overactive brain of anyone that I know. I am thinking all the time constantly going over and over every conversation, every emotion, every thought, every relationship, every bite of every food, everything!!! Nothing goes on without me overthinking the crap out of it!!! I am not certain where this comes fromContinue reading “Tortured by my Thoughts”

Everything Means Something…

I was pushed recently about why I think everything needs to mean something.  Why can’t something just “be” what it is without having meaning.  I have explored this thought for many months now since it was originally asked of me.  I find that life with meaning is far more valuable, at least to me, andContinue reading “Everything Means Something…”

Chemistry Connection

What is it about chemistry that brings two people together? It is not the kind you learn about in high school that requires the memorization of the table of elements. Or maybe it is…there has to be a science to it. I spent two hours on the phone with one of my best friends todayContinue reading “Chemistry Connection”

Pain is Pain…diminishing it does not make it disappear

“There’s no hierarchy of pain. Suffering should not be ranked, because pain is not a contest. …by diminishing my problems, I was judging myself and everyone else whose problems I had placed lower down on the hierarchy of pain. You can’t get through your pain by diminishing it.” Lori Gottlieb “Maybe You Should Talk toContinue reading “Pain is Pain…diminishing it does not make it disappear”

This is going to leave a mark…

This theme has been with me for weeks now and so here I go to give life to the theme. It is plaguing me with something pressing to say, to communicate, to shout from the rooftops…maybe. It is too obvious to suggest that what we, as a world, have gone through in the last threeContinue reading “This is going to leave a mark…”

A Place for Silence

Silence. The word elicits a response regardless of the emotion. When said out loud in exclamation it will quiet a room. When said in a whisper it will quiet the brain. It is something we long for and in other times something we run from. It is a word, a state of being, an emotion,Continue reading “A Place for Silence”

Seeking Normal – Day 24

Day 24 prompt: My husband’s favorite saying is, “nothing ever goes smooth.” That’s his response to things outside his normal. What is your response to a disruption in your normal? My answer: I try to think through why something is not going right and the way to accept that fate is to believe in fateContinue reading “Seeking Normal – Day 24”

Seeking Normal – Day 22

Day 22 prompt: Gary Kiel (my super-handsome spouse) says normal is whatever is the middle in the group of people you are with at that moment. Normal resides in the middle of two extremes and can change based on the group dynamic. What group best defines your normal? My answer: This is a great promptContinue reading “Seeking Normal – Day 22”

Seeking Normal – Day 20

Day 20 prompt: At what point in your life are you in striving and how far away is being content? Entire prompt: Joel Osteen notes, “We spent all this time striving and and now can’t be content where we are or with what we have achieved. Enjoy where you are right now.” My answer: WeContinue reading “Seeking Normal – Day 20”